Thursday, August 21, 2008

Sweet Dreams...

I've been having a lot of dreams lately...I haven't been getting a lot of good sleep. I've had more than one night of know, those restless nights where you can't get your brain to turn off, thinking of one thing after another that's been on your to-do list for way too long. So maybe it's just the lack of sleep getting to me, but I've been dreaming of babies...Chinese babies.

And in one very specific dream earlier this week, we received a referral. For a tiny baby girl born on 3.4.08. I can still see the numbers stitched in cream floral silk on a burgundy background.

For many reasons, I felt very driven to return to China for another daughter almost before we got home with Caroline. The timing hasn't been drove me crazy for a while, and then God told me to chill out. Well, it was more like, "Be still and know that I am God." Since then, I've had a sense of peace about timing, but the pull to China is still very much there. Sometimes I feel like a race horse in the starting gate, and other times, the whole idea of adopting from China seems so abstract and unpredictable. And yet I can remember when the idea of our first adoption seemed much the same. No job, tiny house, SARS, adoption fees, the wait...and God worked out every single detail. How could I ever again question God's timing when I look into my sweet Caroline's face?

Yesterday afternoon, I came across this Bible verse.

"But these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, be patient! For it will surely take place. It will not be late by a single day."

Habakkuk 2:3

My heart is once again at rest, thanks to His word.

Sweet, peaceful dreams are on the way...


Allison said...

Oh my goodness, this was exactly what I needed to read. I feel the same pull--so hard--but I have finally come to terms with the fact that it's not time yet. Yet.

Lynn Cowell said...

Your pictures are AMAZING...shoot right to the heart! I loved that verse in Habakkuk. Life is a bit hard here right now and that verse was exactly what I needed. Thank you so much for sharing it~

Kristi said...

Do you still get the weekly updates from AWAA's family coordinators? That verse was the one our FC sent in this weeks' encouragement!
Your heart is there my friend and I'm so glad that you feel reassurance that your time will again come to return to China! I hope that we'll be part of that somehow...

Love you!

Our Journey said...

Beautiful words -- something that hits my heart right now -- funny how God encourages you to share something that encourages so many others!! (Such sweet pictures by the way!!)